I'm A Big Kid Now

Today it hit me. I'm an adult. I reacted just as if a balloon was popped right by my head. I jumped a little and was still a little shaken up afterward. I mean, I know age wise I'm an adult. But applying for a "grown up" job and having "grown up" responsibilities is just crazy and still a little foreign to me. It's a humbling realization. Don't get me wrong, I'm not terrified, but I for sure understand the weight of the term, "adult." And to think that I am now one just takes my breath away from time to time.

Also, realizing that I've changed so much in the past year almost knocks me on my feet. Some good, some, not necessarily bad, just not where I want to be. In some areas I've almost taken a few steps back, where in other areas I've taken leaps forward. Overall though, I'm not satisfied. That's a good thing. I think it's a bad thing when one becomes content with a certain lifestyle. Especially if one knows what it could be like or should be like.

I've got goals for the next year. And I plan on, for once, doing everything within my power to accomplish said goals. Let's see how this goes.